Sporadic Love And Dreams

Forever Is Everyday

2011-11-24T20:54:00.002+08:00

We've been in eight months and it almost felt like two years
And still nothing has changed
I love you, and loving you more for everyday
Despite the distance, it has no effect
"Distance means so little when someone means so much."
And you are that someone
Everybody knows that I am only this guy, nothing special
But you didn't see me that way
You are that someone who actually believe that I was enough
And you made me believe it too
Now I feel perfect for everyday knowing that I'm yours

You have beautiful eyes, and I stare at those
You have soft little hands, and I hold those
You have this sweet smile, and I'll kiss those
You have this warm body, and I'll hug those
And you have yourself and I own those
For all I own, I take care too much
Baby I love you and I will never let you go
I love you, need you from today until forever

I Will Patiently Wait

2011-10-31T18:55:00.001+08:00

I am 7304 Miles/11755 Kilometers away
And regretted the last time we embraced
"I shoulld't let you go and grab you to stay."
But the worst part is, I really cant

Decisions has been concluded and I am late
For years have passed and some shits are fake
The truth is I loved you even there no us
And today I cant really accept what happend in the past

Today I'm 16 hours ahead
And with every minute in the difference I still regret
I feel sorry for times that should have done better
As I feel perfect when we were together

Even though we were 7304 Miles/11755 Kilometers away
Or even got 16 hours time difference
My feelings for you will never change
I will patiently wait

The Turnover

2011-10-27T21:01:00.006+08:00

OCTOBER 18, 2011 1:43AM
The words came out were unexpected
Doesn't came from my head but from my head downstairs
Such careless in someway through
I was carried away~

Situations were shady in darkness gray
For I acted not a man but a filty gay
My eyes are overshadowed by my own guilty tears
As my ears drop down to the words of jetlagged shits

I was sad and depressed today, tonight and tomorrow
To the moment that should've been best went sorrow
Sad but true, I'm a bullshit for real
I can't even close to dark and touch my self to feel

For the words that been throwned out
I didn't mean seriously to break your heart </3
Guiltyness will start too eat me soon
As I die, I apologize to what happened

In depths my heart and mind lay down to you.
"To your embrace that will not be warmer as it is
To your kisses that will not be sweeter as it is
And to yourself that will not be comfortable as it is
I am sorry as I whisper your name consistent as it is."

To Retrieve My Summer Feelings Again

2011-09-24T00:07:00.011+08:00

For years I've been keeping this
Daydreaming has been always a bliss
Amused that when I close my eyes, you and I kissed
Your lips is so light I can't even resist

For the years that passed by I never crossed
Thinking and loving you is always been my cause
I know this thing couldn't last for any longer
I've been missing you so much, I hope It's not late than never

You've been always my dreamgirl since the beginning
And for days I count and remember not forgetting
I love you so much and I always do
Seeing you with someone gives a lot of pain into

My heart, my soul, my life I'm willing to give
For you, I always want to start forever with
And daydreaming is not gonna make a change
I'll tell you now in million ways just to sort my feelings in pain

I slowly think in thousand times
For how will I come back which I've been dreaming all the time
For this is not just musing but this time I'll make it true
I hope together there will still be me and you

A part of me was always reserved for you
Bring me closer and I'll prove to you it's true
Back and forth, everyday I think and dream of you
I never changed like my intentions were honest and true
Everything is not real, everything is just a dream
~
Everything is not true until you're not here
Let me come closer and I'll whisper to you what I feel
Loving you more is the remaining piece of my heart, It's real
A part of me is always been in you, I've always love you and what's in my heart is forever you

In Dreams Maybe

2010-12-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

It's Eleven O'clock PM.

It's time to drift off into the land of dreams

But before i go to sleep, I think of you while falling asleep

For the probability we meet in dreams

I wondered if you could hear my song in sleep

As I sing the lyrics of you and me

We giggle and kissed so free

It felt so light loving each other entirely

The door opens and "Oh, shit! It was Ten O'clock."

Then after Five seconds and I completely forgot

Blanked for the deepest moment

And dreams are just temporary enjoyment

And so another day comes again

With the same phase of seeing you again

Again with him, happy moments together you and him

Please open the door and let me wake again

False, reality was the enemy i guess

And so I'd rather go to sleep

sail among dreams I've wanted to keep

Because in dreams maybe

There is such as "You and Me"

Believing Delinquency

2010-05-27T08:26:00.001+08:00

"Silence.", I heard the sound of love
Wishing this is true as both of us look at the moon above
The moon was so bright and clear
I hugged you and whispered, "there's nothing here to fear."

And we kissed under the moonlit breeze
I felt so light just like I’m in a dream
A dream that ill deny waking up
And rather be with you as we both break up

And it’s over, so I went down
i went six feet below the ground
With every step i see clearly
The six reasons why I should love you secretly

You were the reason why I like to go to sleep
As I hope that in dreams, both of us will meet
And your goodnight is different from Her
Just like me, singing the second verse
"All I wish is you could be mine
And everything would be possibly fine
As I pray for anything
And it includes you to be my everything.”

You had a key that fits all heart
And it perfectly fits mine
But i cant own you even for seconds of time
Because someone is waiting there and was better than mine.

my rainbow reveals

2010-03-30T21:18:00.000+08:00

"She made an impact.” I said
looking chased down in my mirror
she definitely changed my perspective
the way she smile is so narrative
so unique, tragic and unreal
and it blemished all around my skin
"she just made another impact."
and I blushed.

i blushed to red and dark
now everyone can see my rainbow from afar
she changed my rainbow from gray to blue
and so my smile is so cherished and true

i start and end with burst of mournful gray
it was too neutral and I cant even say everything is okay
and as the mood of her eyes starts as my color of the day
i started to believe in love and being happy for everyday

but she's doubting the way i feel
how I wish I could convince her for what she see is real
and every phrase and letters here are dedicated to you
These entire things are true, and for who I really like is no one but you.

paper love

2010-03-19T19:10:00.000+08:00

i was in a place where everything was a concise illusion
“wake up, wake up.”
“breath, please don’t break up.”
i’ll lend you my heart
crumple my paper love

there is no such feeling you can get
like walking over the silent lake
so peaceful and sweet
i feel like dancing with you around
and i start to love, love everything you surround
and i adjust
as you start to write, at your paper love

i was too brave
to lend my heart, myself and passion
and yes
my love is full and true
and it’s your choice to break it in two
i really love you

nocturnes awaits, my chest trembles
i hear sounds of falling debris, false inertia
but as i start too peek the hidden meaning in you
i began to see reality, I woke up
and my love
my love dances with another guy
and i was crumpled, by paper love

through the monsoon

2010-01-18T19:56:00.001+08:00

i know that you're just a song away, but I'll refuse to sing
i'll rather write this poem than sing that song with me
let me think of what words will i use
for this poem that I'll lend my heart into

i was kept in some words of promise
it comforts me at first but it is starts to get annoying
for those simple smiles embrace never ending
love is really fascinating

i really know that there is a wonderland in you
with the glance of charity, i fell in love with you
you gave me such happiness with your heartrending i love you
dont even deny that you've fallen for me too

and for every time i lose myself i think of you
it changed and now i think of somebody new
now, there's no more together, me and you
as she starts to fill what you've not filled into

i really went to kind and sweet
now i just crashed down for what i really hate to meet
but it's no my lost not having someone like you
maybe were not for each other, maybe this is true

this is not a words of bitter
but a sow feelings for this sincere writer
without you, i feel so weightless and lighter
i feel so glad even it bothers me as i shine brighter

as i sing these words of goodnight
ill say something for somewhat is right
so as you sleep, go grip your pillows tight
for i will rise up without you, ill surely shine bright

"you were my sporadic love, not my dream."

this funicular situation

2010-01-11T15:07:00.000+08:00

your voice was my song to sleep
you're giving me too much sweet
your smile was my daily inspiration
it moves me a lot with effort and perspiration

for i think of you, i feel numbness
as if there is no problem
my mind concentrates on you
due to my world starts to revolve in you

for right now, you maybe so cold
ill still wait for you to come home
ill stay the same girl
my love isn't that easy to burn

thou these hard times i was lost
and those times that i didn't know
you were too blurry to reach
and i think what we could meet

now i am staying steady
gaining strength for you and i am ready
sorry for what i have acted
i was too isolated in my room. busted

and if you didn't return and things seems too be bitter
ill stay sweet even if you're never
i don't change, remember that
my love wouldn't fade that much

i am still me
i dont change even there's something bothering me
for the times i was so wrong
i still wear the same smile you've seen before

where?

2010-01-07T15:33:00.000+08:00

i used to smile everytime i lay in bed
reading your letter gives me warm affection to myself
and before going to sleep, i think of you
now, i am wondering if you think of me too

my chat-box used to be your place
and honestly, my homepage used to be your beautiful face
now. my little chat-box has alot of space
and ive been missing you everytime i wear your lace

***

i feel so different this days and i dont have any idea of what is happening or simply, what is wrong. my universe turns so fast and its cold. i feel so blue. but deep inside. i miss you. honestly. you're the one who first greets me a goodmorning, which cheers me up and makes me start the day with a good mood, and you're the one whom I've always slept behind. and i am really sorry for that, then when i wake up and saw your message saying "tinulugan mo nanaman ako." a little smile pops out within me. i really miss this simple things. my inbox is loaded up with your messages, with this touching reminders that you love me. i kept that and not erased it, for me to read every time i go to bed and to sleep. it comforts me alot. but what is happening? everything just turned so cold instantly. where is the fire we started just this season. i really feel that everything is lost and i dont really know the reason. i feel jealous to those people you've been responding with and to those people whos with you together in a picture. i envy them. i feel down, really down. i want to talk to you seriously. i hope that there's a little space left for me. where are you? yes. you are in my mind. but right now, where i am in you?

underwater, you and me

2009-12-13T05:44:00.000+08:00

she had outstripped his blindfolded eyes
now, he's aware that these emotions flies
yet, he surely know that this one is not a lie
for what he conceive, his mind are secretly tied

her actions gives alot of meaning
his interest was boosted, now, he thinks its nothing
maybe he was too strong to see
the way he showed seem too overacted for me

he is a young poet
his life is nearly like a blue bonnet
let him sing this song of sonnet
as he wash his face around this dirty faucet

i apologize from what he acted
now he knows that it's not well for you whom is not proficient
maybe he was hypnotized by the foolish reenactment
and he is down alone in his room, busted

he has alot of time to think
what to do with this disturbance bricked
he feels sorry for what he acted
maybe he's too young for a serious reenactment

he accepts all things
as if there will be no problem at seems
he understands all things and accept freely
now he wants to do nothing, yet he's willing

he said that he learned alot of things
and he's thanking you for what you perceived
maybe he acted so harshly and noob
and he understand it all and he don't want to end with doom

he understand what life suppose to be
he learned alot from this mistakes, he see
now, he can handle a unique classy weird chick
lets dance around and play underwater, you and me

the reason under my erratic sunset

2009-12-09T13:26:00.000+08:00

Although i often dream that this is forever
i dont have an idea for what will happen, moreover
ill be still believing that this is forever
and you will still be my whoever

By the time you'll leave
i dont have the guts to start everyday without you here
i will cry, and surely cant smile
and do nothing else but to try

Become a man is really this hard
pain and suffering surely will tear you apart
but loving someone like you isn't hard
you're the one who makes every beat different in this heart

In this upcoming vacation
i think both of us will be busy with our own subsections
i may be not in your mind for sometime
yet, you will be in mind my and my heart all the time

Everything will be alright
i surely understand what will happen right
ill be the man understanding you thoughts
with every struggles, ill be right beside you and we'll prove them wrong

my sleepless thought

2009-11-23T14:45:00.000+08:00

you have just given me another reason to write
and i was shock for what you said last night
you are the type of girl who has alot of surprises
and i cant close my eyes until the morning sunset

you may see me so unclear
im sorry, sometimes i can't express these things i feel
but you'll see that this love for you is real
just look at me closely so you'll see me very clear

i know that you cant say it
but im sure that you can really show it

and that's what really like
making weird things happen right
and that's the first thing i have noticed to you
the weirdness you have make you so very cool

you're my whoever

2009-11-19T12:17:00.000+08:00

with every stare, i start to give meaning
i think this is the day that I've dreaming

i never felt this way before
with such happiness, i cant talk anymore
you surprised me with your deepest thought
let me love you the way that i never loved anyone before

as you start to be forever
i want it to be the same as your forever
i guess it was you who was my whoever
after a long long search, now i finally found the one I'll love forever

i guess these words has been said to you before
and not proven, so you dont believe it anymore
let me prove it ones and make you believe it through
and make you feel that this man deserves to have you

bruised and weak
so uncomfortable and sick
these are the things i do really feel
seeing you with watery eyes and not so very clear

what seems to be the problem?
what bugs you and makes you feel so uncrowded
its ok, and i know everything will be alright
there will be no problem with both of us and i know that's surely right

my mom was happy to see you
and look, she's so glad for me to have you
giving me smiles and laughter
she said that "when will she come back after?"

i guess there will be no signs of improbability
because everyone here is so glad for me
giving us graces with fierce agility
i guess both of us where really meant to be

now, everyday starts with a different flavor
because now on, i wake up with my dream person
wonder where she is?
she's in my mind and in my heart, yes she'll be

this in not a love story nor a story of love, and has happy endings
yet this is a real love story
has no happy endings
yet its forever.

i sincerely love you.
Abbie ♥

The Quenching Thursday Afternoon.

2009-11-13T13:09:00.000+08:00

i thirst for your presence
i smell blood around these fences
please dont kill me with your absence
let me warmth you up with my essence

i was clueless, for everybody's tricky little secret
everybody here is acting so weird,
so stealthy,
applying the art of ninjistic

it was thursday and everything runs normal
and look, i have just moved on from the things that looks paranormal
waking up early and staying at the bathroom late
yes , this is the reason why this guy is always coming late

so, the classes go on
i stayed cool and wait for the time to go home
im rushing to go online to see her photo in smile
having paper conversation and ending up with waving goodbyes

its been a week since we've last seen each other
and i am missing everything about you
i know youre so busy and i dont want to bother
and i miss the way you smile, and everything that you do

"look at me in the eyes,
can you read me?
ive been missing you so,
and i dont want this to happen anymore."

this is megalomania
nothingness surrounds me in the cafeteria
so i've decided
to go home

then i saw you,
your charming eyes, the glimpse of your lips
you start to fill colors in my kissing dreams
you wearing the same color as mine
i was so shocked and surprised
i cant do anything but yet to smile

king paranoid.

2009-11-11T20:56:00.002+08:00

lock and loaded
sick alone in my room, isolated
wandering if these things i do makes me related
one week of not seeing you makes me paranoid at most level

Im stocked alone,
i dont have any idea of what you are doing at home
but yet, i cant stop myself thinking, wondering, singing our favorite song

"because maybe,
your gonna be the one that saves me,
and after all,
youre my wonderwall"

maybe love is quite contagious
but this love can make you more religious
making you stay late night talking at the fone
or having written conversation with the one you only know

please dont inure me with these things
i always wanted to see you here
closely, reality
your charming eyes, the glimps of your lips
i want you here
oh yes, i want you here
look at me in the eyes and see it very clear.

i miss you..
sincerly i do..

Espoused With The Sweetest Commitment

2009-11-06T12:24:00.001+08:00

Five long days of no-writing
Makes me different from anybody
There are so many changes revolves around me
Everybody knows that im not into this thing called movies

The last movie i watched is "Licened to Wed"
And this is the first time i enjoyed before sleeping up to bed
The leading actress was so gorgeous and sweet
While the leading actor is so agressive and quick

I was so inspired in this movie
I want to propose to someone whos ready
I think abbie is quite ready
For a ceremony marked as the sweetest wedding
<3

naaah.both of us were to young for the wedding thing
but when we grow more older
ill make history
marrying the one ive always dreaming

everybody here is changing
and so do i
now i understand why these movies affects peoples life
watching movie every night turns to be my habit
i enjoy life more, learn things and so many more :)

so can anybody here suggest my next attraction?
please post it in my freedomboard
(:

Sweetest Rainbow

2009-10-25T21:57:00.001+08:00

The pastel color of my life
My happy rainbow sky
She brights upon with the morning sunshine
And kiss beyond the kismet sunlight

I am changing
Definitely,
I feel such happiness
Is this love?
Yes it is

Its been years since i felt this love
I'm longing for such happiness
And someone to lend my seriousness

I have been rejected
I have been fooled
What did i do?
For this heart who's longing for someone new

And then
She strikes up my attention

A girl who stunned me with her charming eyes
Bringing chaos to my kissing rainbow sky
Boosting up this unstable guy
Invoking me to love again, so i tried
Eventually, i have fallen thru the blind depths of love. ♥

Falling Deeply

2009-10-22T22:18:00.001+08:00

She manages me
Well im impressed
I feel weightless, careless

She's very unique
I am speechless
I feel nothing but happiness
I wish that these thing wont go to nothingness

Walking in the casting shadows
We held hands under the cresent moon
We looked up to each other and smile
I don't know what to say, what I know, is i love her

She fills up this empty heart
I trust her not to fell this apart
Please dont leave, please dont leave
Loosing you is what I really fear